tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post3835658168626165129..comments2023-10-10T05:17:55.737-07:00Comments on Crushed By Ingsoc: How I Shut Down All Emotions- And How They Turned Up AgainCrushedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02479751225625007588noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-64068714635566444022008-06-26T17:29:00.000-07:002008-06-26T17:29:00.000-07:00Hmmm. One definition of neurosis is the inflexibl...Hmmm. One definition of neurosis is the inflexible repetition of behaviors, or patterns of behavior to rectify a lost chance, a trauma, or some ugly thing or another. <br><br>I don't think that applies to you, actually, but if you find yourself having the same kind of difficulties with the same kind of women in RL, and the women you can connect are only those who are distant (arranged marriage, cyberfriends, etc.) you might want to change that, someday. But if it continues for a longer period of time, and you're not happy with it, you might need help in changing that. <br><br>I've had my own Joanna, and know how devastating she can be. But I also realized life has fairly compensated me for the loss. Maybe it will compensate you too.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-4190977402021292152008-06-26T17:48:00.000-07:002008-06-26T17:48:00.000-07:00Another of your very honest posts. Your conclusio...Another of your very honest posts. Your conclusions could well be wrong but at least you are trying to work it all through. <br><br><i>And I wouldn't be able to have that sort of relationship with that person in the flesh, I don't think. I wouldn't be able to let my barriers down.</i><br><br>It will happen eventually, even if it's just with a friend. As I have said before, you are a work in progress. One day it will all come together.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-28404154301968040732008-06-26T23:37:00.000-07:002008-06-26T23:37:00.000-07:00Think you under estimate yourself Crushed.Think you under estimate yourself Crushed.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-92081341079813013282008-06-27T08:25:00.000-07:002008-06-27T08:25:00.000-07:00Hehe I love the sight of someone having a mental b...Hehe I love the sight of someone having a mental breakdown in public.<br><br>I hope you haven't any razor blades in the house otherwise you might do your self some harm.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-32306479288417505542008-06-27T11:20:00.000-07:002008-06-27T11:20:00.000-07:00Have no idea what that last comment was about, you...Have no idea what that last comment was about, you've always struck me as quite stable with perhaps eccentric views that in other times are either genius or heretical, but I have my own eccentric views as well. <br><br>Most people live purely on instinct, stimulus-response, stimulus-response, don't they ever think? And you think. You weigh historic fact, scientific theory, and observations about the world and make predictions about behavior, patterns, and the future. You do that quite well on a macro-scale, that is Crushed, there's little room for quirks and uncertainties when you're thinking like Crushed. But I think in many ways in your personal life you still live by instinct, and in relaying this history of women, you're asking us to accept that quirks about women and sexuality are an intrinsic part of you, not to be reasoned or questioned. Crushed would never expect us to accept the inexplicable. Think and reason through this, don't be a victim of instinct and patterned behavior.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-69920381212451376322008-06-27T16:24:00.000-07:002008-06-27T16:24:00.000-07:00From your comments here I think you are healing an...From your comments here I think you are healing and Crushed and RL you will merge. You will get to have the same levels of trust and friendship in RL.<br><br>RL friends you can look them in the eye and know what they are thinking ;-)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-79931521696363978052008-06-28T03:38:00.000-07:002008-06-28T03:38:00.000-07:00Give yourself some slack crushed. Never talk down ...Give yourself some slack crushed. Never talk down on yourself, thats what you got friends for ;)<br><br>I'm glad however that you feel like you are trying to find your way back to becoming you again. Thats what friends do, bring out the best things in you which others dont take time to see. <br><br>Life sometimes leaves us bitter, but never lose your faith in life, in love, in others, and mostly, in yourself.<br><br>Cheers!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-9209256969406446112008-06-28T05:47:00.000-07:002008-06-28T05:47:00.000-07:00X-dell- The term neurosis is hard to define, inter...X-dell- The term neurosis is hard to define, interestingly it's literal meaning is a nervous disorder, even though it's more often more complex than that.<br><br>I think 'highly strung' would be a good description of me.<br>There are certain character facets I show, which if taken to extreme, would ressemble neuroses, I'm sure of that, mainly in terms of patterns and categorising. A tendancy toward control freakery, maybe.<br><br>One key problem always is, is I always need to feel complete control over my life, and I seem to attract women who when they say share your life mean share YOUR life.<br><br>I think everything happens for a reason. thee things happen to guide us down certain paths.<br><br>jmb- I already have that relationship with my friends, but then again, I trust them. Its different. What I'm talking about here kind of ticks the boxes here in terms of allowing me to feel that full devotion to someone of the opposite sex, without it frankly scaring the shit out of me.<br><br>Nunyaa- Maybe. My close friends think it really is about just having avoided the right type. The Baker says its very simple, I go for the easy options- as in the ones who don't play hard to get, and then get surprised when I find that they're too emotionally demanding.<br><br>Baht At- I can see why you have many friends in real life.<br><br>Helen- Oh, he's part of the new unholy alliance of the autistic and the fruitcake. Wouldn't worry about him. Sometimes he amuses, I delete him.<br><br>I'm actually quite a hyper person in RL, no doubting that, but ultimately I tend to be comfortable with things that make logical sense. I don't tend to be comfortable with things I can't logically define.<br><br>But there's often very little rational about my love/sex life, that's for sure. For the most part, it was written by soap opera writers.<br><br>I think I have become more rational about it of late, mainly because in some ways, up to now it has tended to be the bane of my existence...<br><br>CherryPie- I actually show great levels of trust to my close friends, they have free access to my flat.<br><br>And I have what you describe with them, and they with me.<br><br>Thing is, I trust them. It's that extra border, a lover who is also a frend. There's a part of me sees that as a conflict of interests, in an RL sense.<br><br>Crashie- Friends of course know you. My best mate always says it's easier for us to understand eachother because we've known eachother for ten years- in other words, we knew eachother when young, we made friends before we'd learned to cover our weaknesses.<br><br>I actually don't think I AM tht bitter. Time was when yes, I was. Back before 2004, I think I was very bitter. Oddly, I'm not now.<br><br>And it's always good to have people with you on the journey. :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3334391160365031546.post-13576693679146751822008-06-28T18:20:00.000-07:002008-06-28T18:20:00.000-07:00Re deleted comments: The Blog Angel says delete an...Re deleted comments: The Blog Angel says delete and ignore.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com