Monday, 7 January 2008

You Wanted a Statement, Mr Higham? You Got One



Well, Mr Higham and his ally seem determined between them to drag my name through the gutter.

It only remains for me to be public and candid.

Mr Higham seeks to convince the blogosphere at large that this blogger is somehow deranged, mad, power hungry and dangerous.

This blogger believes that people read this blog AND READ BETWEEN THE LINES.

But if they don't, I'll fill in the blanks for you NOW.

Because I CERTAINLY have nothing to apologise for.

Before I come to his allegations, some background.
I have made two mistakes in life.
I don't apologise at all for the first.

Did it ruin my life? Too damn right it did.
Did I learn anything from it? Everything.

It will be apparent from close reading of this blog that I made huge cock ups in my early twenties.
Some readers will be aware I have alluded to a period where, after a girlfriend's abortion I basically lived off Ecstasy.

In fact, I used to wonder round with pockets full of them.
Stupid? Yes. I was pretty stupid back then.
I really didn't give a damn.

Until I was arrested at a nightclub with 38 of them in my pocket.
And 50 more back at the flat.

Well, you'll be relieved to know, that whilst 2 years is normal for molesting a twelve year old child, Birmingham Crown Court thought four years was fair in my case, being an evil Ecstasy user who might possibly have been passing pills to other Ecstasy users.

May 14th 2004.
The day my life ended.
It did, no two ways about it.

I'm sure you can see why this isn't something I particularly wanted public.

I'm not a big person. I still look like a little hobbit today. It was never going to be easy, and I knew that.

But the aim always was to get parole, and be out for the 2006 World Cup.
And I did that. And I kept my dignity all the way.

It's dog eat dog in there. Winson Green has an evil reputation, and I lived there for a year. I spent my time there learning the Sciences. I also grafted my parole, by signing up to a Samaritans based programme for providing comfort to vulnerable prisoners.

In a sense, the latter helped a lot, and not just in getting my early D-cat and parole. I saw how the other half lived, people who were damned in life the moment they entered the world. For many people in a place like that, there's no hope. They were born dregs, they live as dregs, they die young, as dregs.

It's squalour. The whole thing is squalid. Not just physically, psychologically so. It's about boredom, frustration, total loss of dignity.

It's about taking abuse from screws who served in the six counties and still think it's OK to abuse Catholics.
You need special skills to survive.

You need to be either big, intelligent, or just good with people.
Two out of three gets you through.

It's about networking and watching your back. It's about making yourself indispensable.
Over time, you can make your life easy, and give yourself the dignity you need to hold your head up high.

Little things, like refusing to wear the claret prison T-shirts and always wearing a visiting shirt, because you, a Blues fan, will not wear claret and blue together.

I have mentioned before how important to me my watch, my crucifix and my Claddagh ring are. The main reason is, I kept them on all the way through. My watch still has the paper clip holding it together that I used as a makeshift repair job after the clasp broke. I'll never get it fixed, it means something to me that I kept a £60 watch on my arm through that Hell hole, and I fixed it with a paper clip.

I learned to shut down every emotion I had and just survive.

But I did more.

Not a day goes by in there, you don't regret. You are watching your life frittered away. They are MAKING YOU wish your life away, making you wish that it is May 2006. Of course you ask yourself over and over again, do I deserve this?

And the answer I always came back to was 'No'
I really cannot see that I did something that terrible.

I don't really want to go into too much of what I saw in there, but trust me, it wasn't very nice.

Getting to Sudbury was a huge change, it's kind of a rest home for good cons. I was lucky here, I had a trusted position, with my own office, to which I had the key. It wasn't so bad.
And I got my parole. Better, I take pride in the fact that I told the parole board I thought the law was an ass on the subject, but I wasn't stupid enough to let it happen again. I'd wasted enough time.

The parole board agreed.

And I was lucky. I walked out with my life in ruins, but I had the skills needed to get my old life back.
No one cares if a salesman has the odd drugs conviction.
In fact, it's not uncommon.

But it's not as simple as that.

All those things you thought you'd missed feel strange.

You missed women, but now you can't relate to them. It took me months to be able to develop normal relations on that front, I just wasn't used to it. Even now, I'm not sure I'm quite comfortable with it.

A lot of things took a while to get used to. Even the pub. I would look around at people laughing, enjoying a pint, and I'd think back to the Green and think 'If only you knew, if only you knew how amazing it is to just have a beer'



The Eloi and the Morlocks.

I'd held myself through all that, I'd shut everything down, cauterised every emotion I had. And now I had to try live again. I'd never thought that far ahead. May 15th 2006. That had been it. Now I was back in the real world, and it scared me. I wanted to go back, back to a world I had grown to understand, a world I felt at home in.

OK, that makes no sense. But it's true.

For about a year, everything remained bottled up, except when I got hammered. That's how me and my flatmate met. I cried on her shoulder, literally.

And my close friends looked after me. They helped me back into dealing with social situations, towards finding myself again. It took a long time.
But in a sense, it never ends. It never will.

Twice, three times a week, I dream of it. Ultraviolet lighting, green walls, the smell of urine, the sounds of clinking, the sounds of boots clamping, whistles blowing, raucous shouting, that permanent sense of tension, of living in a powder keg of male aggression and frustration, where if you ever stop being tensed, like primitive man upon the savannah, you are doomed.

Most people think I haven't changed. Outwardly, I haven't. I'm still as cocky, flirty and hedonistic as I was before.
It's inside there's the difference.
I'll never be the same again. I can't let down the barriers I put up there.
I never, ever will.

So that's me. I died back in May 2004, in a very real way.

But good came out of it.

I had two long years to sit and think.

And I was damn sure by the time I had finished, that I was not wrong about a thing.

I still have somewhere the envelope where, by merging equations that aren't generally merged, I proved to my own satisfaction anyway, that quarks are in fact simply photons trapped in a warp of space created by their extreme frequency.

I was satisfied that pretty much everything was ultimately explainable by the laws of thermodynamics.

Life exists because of those laws. They are a logical consequence.

And I had stripped existence to basic physical terms, stripped society, everything from viewing it in a subjective way.

I now looked at it, as what it was. A movement towards complexity. Because the laws of the universe favour the development of more complex forms.
And that suits us great. But the REASON it suits us great, is because it SUITS THE LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE FOR IT TO SUIT US.

That's it. No more. That's the riddle of life.

The Universe drives us to breed and flourish, to get more complex.

And standing back objectively, I could see human history as simply being the most recent, and the most brilliant chapter in that story.

And re-reading Marx from this perspective, seeing it as a scientific and not a political tract, reading Nietzche and realising that what he was saying was that Man should learn to love himself, and strive upwards, not accepting any limits to where we as a species might go, I realised, we, the species ARE AT A CROSSROADS.

This really is it. Which happens first?
Blowing ourselves up, or colonising space.
It's that brutal.

Because looking out into that sky, I see no evidence that anywhere nearby, any other species have passed that test.

We CAN.

I don't need to sit around praying for a revolution. It's not going to be like the French revolution, something that might have been averted. We are looking at the inevitable.

The Capitalist system WILL FAIL. I, a Tory voter, came to that conclusion through getting grips with the theory. Marx's laws of economics are as CERTAIN as Darwin's laws of evolution.

The revolution I speak of, is like the Industrial revolution. It will happen, if we succeed.
If it doesn't, it is because we fail as a species.

It WILL bring an end to private property, to corporations, to power matrices such as we are used to. It will be the final phase in the sexual and feminist revolutions. It will bring end to Racism, Sexism, Homophobia, the lot.

It will bring in a society based on logic and logic alone.
The aims of which are satisfying human desires, ensuring our continued technological progress and continually expanding our numbers.

A world geared up to use every human contribution, to satisfy every human desire that does not harm the common good, a world geared up to ensure that each generation leaves behind a world with a better infrastructure, a greater knowledge bank, having reached further into the universe.

I believe in that.

But I know we cannot be complacent.
We are all responsible.

And yes, I feel a moral responsibility.
And nothing else is remotely relevant to me. I don't care. I lost interest in ME, a long time back.

So Mr Higham can misrepresent me all he wants. Mr Higham believes in the Illuminati and Intelligent Design. (He also hints I am employed by these people) Mr Higham also believes a woman who I can provide several Real Life witnesses to prove harrassed this blogger.

Mr Higham is very well aware that his posts are disingenuous, that the ONLY reason I maintained contact with his 'source' after the dates mentioned, was in effort to prevent her publishing any of the above. Mr Higham is aware the personal anxiety all this caused me. He is aware it ALMOST brought me to nervous breakdown, and he uses e-mails sent TO A PERSECUTOR, by the PERSECUTED. Someone living in constant fear, fear of the person sending the e-mails. A person who would literally do anything to stop the torture. How would Mr Higham feel, if months after he had asked an end to contact, contact continued and he felt obliged to continue, SIMPLY TO SAVE HIS BLOG.

Mr Higham does not choose to mention in his misleading post, that ALL e-mails referred to, bar one, are from the same source, and the one that isn't, is someone he really should speak to. She will tell him a very different story to the one he presents. Trust me.

It's a very clever presentation he puts forward, but ultimately disingenuous.

I make no secret of the fact that the purpose of this blog is to outline my theories and make contact with like minded bloggers so debate can be initiated on the future of our species. Do I aim to overthrow the government?

No. It will fall of it's own accord. It wall fall, when the money based system collapses. The whole social order will.

But when it does, I want to ensure that people are actually ready to take their world into their own hands, and not be be mown down in the streets.

I do not want INGSOC to actually happen. Therefore when the system fails, people need to know what's going on and be ready.

Nothing particularly sinister about that.

And of course I want to be anonymous. I don't trust these bastards. I don't think this a free country. I really do believe that if they read this blog, they'd stick me on a list along with Terror suspects. Not really THAT unreasonable a belief.

As for Mr Higham's 'source', what we have here is a woman who cannot understand why it is I do not want her in my life.
A good deal of the mails he quotes are simply trying to be nice, to explain why this blog matters, and she doesn't.

OK. I said a lot of shit to her, because on the phone, she listened to me outline some of the horrors I've lived through. No one had ever done that before. So I said some stupid things.
I've never done that to anyone ELSE.

Now you can MISREPRESENT IT, but see what I ACTUALLY SAY.

I apologise for making her think that I was romantically interested. I got confused. It was gratitude for listening, that I felt. Unfortunately she then raised havoc and tried to ACTUALLY get involved in my life.

Reality is, no one is allowed that close. They never will be. Not unless you are already close. That's my Real Life friends. No one gets closer than them.

I let her close, BECAUSE she was on the end of the phone. Had it been Real Life, I wouldn't have. It was the biggest mistake I ever made.

I'm sorry she never understood anything.

I'm not 'unstable', Mr Higham, but I am pretty bloody fragile underneath, and your 'source' had me living in terror. FACT.

Yes, it is true that I will never sleep properly again, I don't think. It is true, I cannot focus on Television. It is true I suffer from regular panic attacks, especially if left on my own for too long. It is true that I can derive satisfaction in short term pleasure, but will probably never be able to have a romantic relationship. I really can't cope with people trying to get emotionally close, except close friends.

So obsessed with my blog? Too damn right I am.
I lost a son to an abortion in 2001. The feelings I have for this blog ARE those of a father towards his child. I know that.

Do I come online for serious discussion with like minded people? I have stated that.

Do I think an online direct democratic debate forum can be founded here?

Yes, yes I do, Mr Higham, and I want EVERYONE on board.
And yes, Mr Higham, that includes Anarchist bloggers from the Phillipines.

Because it's ALL our future.

And I do not intend to waste my existence.

So you carry on seeing the world through your warped viewpoint.

Yes, I want to get a movement going. We're all part of it already, It's called BLOGGING.

THE BIGGEST DIRECT DEMOCRATIC DEBATING FORUM THE WORLD HAS SEEN.

AND I WANT TO MAKE THE BASTARDS LISTEN.

THIS IS THE WORLD'S REPRESENTATIVE CHAMBER

Because I really cannot see anything else worth doing.

And I leave you with my little red V sign saying what V signs do.



Go f**k yourself, Mr Higham.

I don't what planet you live on, but I hope we colonise it soon.

Sunday, 6 January 2008

Leaving Las Vegas- The Only True Love Story Ever



Generally, I hate love stories. I dislike 'romantic comedies', I dislike films of the 'Cocktail' variety, I find the whole genre dishonest and uninformative.

But I make an exception for Leaving Las Vegas.
Leaving Las Vegas is a Love Story worthy of the name.
It really DOES have something to say.

It's not a happy story, because it's not a story about happy people. It's a story of flawed people, who find love in their flaws.

And that's where the power comes from.



Nicholas Cage is beyond hope. A Hollywood script writer, who has drifted irretreivably into alcoholism, he decides to move off to Vegas and spend his remaining money on the determined objective of drinking himself to death.

Elizabeth Shue is a high class hooker, one of the best and proud of her abilities.

And in this world of glitz, their paths cross. It is, almost, love at first sight, the deep caring of two people for eachother. And most importantly, it is unconditional.
To quote Cage 'You're a hooker and I'm an alcoholic. I just want you to know I'm a person totally at ease with that fact.'

Their love consists in acceptance. He does not stop her working, she does not stop him drinking.
Possibly the greatest testament to this, is the present she buys him when he moves in with her, a hip flask.

And this is the paradox of the film. Because each party finds themselves torn apart by watching the other. Yet to do anything, is to betray the basis of their love; total acceptance.

The ending is in one sense happy, in one sense sad.

Is it the victory of True Love?

I guess you need to watch the film to make your mind up on that.



But I certainly think so.

This film, to me is what Love is all about.

Saturday, 5 January 2008

Reality, Dark, Stark, Terrible to Behold



Most people go through life fed on soothing trivialities.

Sometimes I envy them.

I envy my friends happy and in love. From them, there is peace and happiness.
I envy that they can find comfort in things that will fulfill them, that there is a chance there for them to find those moments of genuine contentment.

Ignorance is bliss.
It truly is.

Some things, nobody wants to see. Eating of the tree of knowledge did not bring happiness to Adam and Eve.

Oh, it is terrible and beautiful sometimes, looking at the awesome majesty of life. But looking at the dark, terrible interconnections of the human matrix, the continual pressing on that nerve of power, the twisting, warping of human capability, one cannot really be diverted.

Do you laugh, or cry?

Do you resist, or bow down?

Should you just say, Hell, I don't care.
I'll be happy with trvialities, just like everybody else.

Can we afford not to ask questions, whilst a whole continent is the world's ghetto, patrolled by armed thugs?

The War on Terror. Who'se terror? And why?
Is it religion, or cultural imperialism that is the key?

Was the bombing of the twin towers, an act of jihad or of the sense of alienation swathes of the world feel?

What do the rising crime rates, the increasing social breakdown of our own societies mean?
That people are getting nastier? Or that our societies are creating social wastage?

And how can we solve it? By waving a wand, putting women back in skirts and pretending we never invented the pill?

Is an economy that puts in money into Pokemon, but not space travel, REALLY at it's peak?



Do you really think our children are going to have lives of better quality than ours IF THINGS CONTINUE AS THEY ARE?

Will they continue as they are?

No, no they won't. This is the death throes of this system.
Things will improve.

I would say we all have our part to play, but some of you just want to get on and live your own lives. Find love, have a career, be happy.

Good luck to you. Not all of us have that luxury. Some of us woke up one morning and realised that try as we might, the world as it stood had lost it's taste for us.

There's not much any of us can do, except watch. Watch and contribute, in terms of discussing what future we want.

Explain how we see the world, offer our own insights,
Nothing else we do really matters, I don't think. Not for the moment.
They have us pinned down.

Joining in the 'BB' chanting, shouting 'Death to Goldstein' is the way to happiness in the world we live in, that's for sure.

But what price happiness?

Well, anyway, right now I'm tired. I mean REALLY tired. Tired as in, I've not eaten or slept properly for months. You think I rested over Christmas? Think again.

Tired, frustrated, disillusioned, and to be honest, completely bewildered.



I'm start to think that either I, or everyone else, is going crazy.

Posting light till I get my strength back.

Friday, 4 January 2008

Judge By What You See



I think I'm pretty nice to all of you.
Extra nice to some of you.

No point in making enemies of you, if you disagree nicely with me, I disagree nicely with you.

I think I'm candid about what I believe in. I think I write well enough for you to be able to understand me.
Or so I like to think.

Now it's pretty obvious that I don't come online for two hours a night, using up time I could be seducing barmaids with, without a good reason.
Do I care passionately about what I write?
Of course I bloody do.

Am I going to write it in the best possible way to put that across?
Of course I am.

Am I going to choose the best possible imagery to sell the post?
Of course I am.

Am I going to pick a title likely to grab attention?
Of course I am.

At the end of the day, it's important to me to ensure my posts have maximum impact.

Now- Do you any of you feel that I brainwash you?
If you do, please let me know.

I'm rather hoping instead, you simply see the logic in the things I write.
If you go away agreeing with what I've written, all well and good.
That's why I wrote it in the first place.

Because I happen to believe I'M RIGHT.

Now, there are some who get very worried by this. They think I write so well, that you might agree with what I write. They think I'm TOO charismatic. I'm too flirty with the women. And hey, I like to flirt with you. It's good rapport building. Why not? If it's a good rapport building tool and it breaks down barriers between you and your readers, you'd be an idiot not to use it.

And obviously, the aim of blogging is to tear down barriers.

I've always been quite happy to discuss my ideas by e-mail with anyone, and plenty of you have taken up the opportunity. It takes second place to posting, but I certainly treat responding to e-mails as important.

And am I candid with you? Of course, especially in e-mails. You get me as I actually am in Real Life.

The most important thing, as far as I am concerned, is to maximise my relationship with as many of you as possible. That's not just a blogging principle, it'a Real Life principle.
In the past history of this blog, I made the mistake of getting too close to a reader, (it went to the telephone). They then forgot, that back in Blogland, they were just another commenter and no matter what sweet nothings were uttered, here, readers are judged on the basis of positive or negative impact on this blog.

This romantic stuff is all very well, but if it gets in the way of more important things, then it can't continue.

You could be the Love of my life, but that isn't the be all and end all in life. Running this blog effectively, like work and friends, comes first.



My job is to sell things. Am I that bothered about what I'm selling?
No, but I make a living out of it.

The purpose of this blog is to put across ideas I DO believe in.
So obviously, the posts are written accordingly.

I find it hard to believe that people are ACTUALLY going to get a crush on someone they have never met (sure we all say it when we flirt with eachother online, but GET REAL, people, it is using sexual dynamics to bond with eachother. IT ISN'T REAL).

If anyone here has been stupid enough to think I think of ANY of my readers in anything other than a platonic sense, then I must admit, that really DOES surprise me.

It is my belief that most of you READ what I write. But maybe I'm wrong.

My principles AND the way I ACTUALLY live, are both described here in detail.

I really can't get more ethical than that.

So, to say this blog, or it's author, in any way deceive, doesn't really stand up to scrutiny.

My beliefs, and lifestyle, are both a matter of public record.

Thursday, 3 January 2008

Tonight, some REAL INGSOC



OK, Tonight, A few excerpts from The 'Theory and Practice of Oligarchical Collectivism, from the book which gives this blog it's title.

A lot of the points made, are worth considering. They apply EQUALLY to all sides of the political spectrum.

Essentially, it is ALL the same model. we just live in a watered down form to that Orwell Describes

Throughout recorded time, and probably since the end of the Neolithic Age, there have been three kinds of people in the world, the High, the Middle, and the Low. They have been subdivided in many ways, they have borne countless different names, and their relative numbers, as well as their attitude towards one another, have varied from age to age: but the essential structure of society has never altered. Even after enormous upheavals and seemingly irrevocable changes, the same pattern has always reasserted itself, just as a gyroscope will always return to equilibrium, however far it is pushed one way or the other...


...By the late nineteenth century the recurrence of this pattern had become obvious to many observers. There then rose schools of thinkers who interpreted history as a cyclical process and claimed to show that inequality was the unalterable law of human life. This doctrine, of course, had always had its adherents, but in the manner in which it was now put forward there was a significant change. In the past the need for a hierarchical form of society had been the doctrine specifically of the High. It had been preached by kings and aristocrats and by the priests, lawyers, and the like who were parasitical upon them, and it had generally been softened by promises of compensation in an imaginary world beyond the grave. The Middle, so long as it was struggling for power, had always made use of such terms as freedom, justice, and fraternity. Now, however, the concept of human brotherhood began to be assailed by people who were not yet in positions of command, but merely hoped to be so before long. In the past the Middle had made revolutions under the banner of equality, and then had established a fresh tyranny as soon as the old one was overthrown. The new Middle groups in effect proclaimed their tyranny beforehand. Socialism, a theory which appeared in the early nineteenth century and was the last link in a chain of thought stretching back to the slave rebellions of antiquity, was still deeply infected by the Utopianism of past ages. But in each variant of Socialism that appeared from about 1900 onwards the aim of establishing liberty and equality was more and more openly abandoned. The new movements which appeared in the middle years of the century, Ingsoc in Oceania, Neo-Bolshevism in Eurasia, Death-Worship, as it is commonly called, in Eastasia, had the conscious aim of perpetuating unfreedom and inequality. These new movements, of course, grew out of the old ones and tended to keep their names and pay lip-service to their ideology. But the purpose of all of them was to arrest progress and freeze history at a chosen moment. The familiar pendulum swing was to happen once more, and then stop. As usual, the High were to be turned out by the Middle, who would then become the High; but this time, by conscious strategy, the High would be able to maintain their position permanently.

The new doctrines arose partly because of the accumulation of historical knowledge, and the growth of the historical sense, which had hardly existed before the nineteenth century. The cyclical movement of history was now intelligible, or appeared to be so; and if it was intelligible, then it was alterable. But the principal, underlying cause was that, as early as the beginning of the twentieth century, human equality had become technically possible. It was still true that men were not equal in their native talents and that functions had to be specialized in ways that favoured some individuals against others; but there was no longer any real need for class distinctions or for large differences of wealth. In earlier ages, class distinctions had been not only inevitable but desirable. Inequality was the price of civilization. With the development of machine production, however, the case was altered. Even if it was still necessary for human beings to do different kinds of work, it was no longer necessary for them to live at different social or economic levels. Therefore, from the point of view of the new groups who were on the point of seizing power, human equality was no longer an ideal to be striven after, but a danger to be averted. In more primitive ages, when a just and peaceful society was in fact not possible, it had been fairly easy to believe it. The idea of an earthly paradise in which men should live together in a state of brotherhood, without laws and without brute labour, had haunted the human imagination for thousands of years. And this vision had had a certain hold even on the groups who actually profited by each historical change. The heirs of the French, English, and American revolutions had partly believed in their own phrases about the rights of man, freedom of speech, equality before the law, and the like, and have even allowed their conduct to be influenced by them to some extent. But by the fourth decade of the twentieth century all the main currents of political thought were authoritarian. The earthly paradise had been discredited at exactly the moment when it became realizable. Every new political theory, by whatever name it called itself, led back to hierarchy and regimentation. And in the general hardening of outlook that set in round about 1930, practices which had been long abandoned, in some cases for hundreds of years -- imprisonment without trial, the use of war prisoners as slaves, public executions, torture to extract confessions, the use of hostages, and the deportation of whole populations-not only became common again, but were tolerated and even defended by people who considered themselves enlightened and progressive.

It was only after a decade of national wars, civil wars, revolutions, and counter-revolutions in all parts of the world that Ingsoc and its rivals emerged as fully worked-out political theories. But they had been foreshadowed by the various systems, generally called totalitarian, which had appeared earlier in the century, and the main outlines of the world which would emerge from the prevailing chaos had long been obvious. What kind of people would control this world had been equally obvious. The new aristocracy was made up for the most part of bureaucrats, scientists, technicians, trade-union organizers, publicity experts, sociologists, teachers, journalists, and professional politicians. These people, whose origins lay in the salaried middle class and the upper grades of the working class, had been shaped and brought together by the barren world of monopoly industry and centralized government. As compared with their opposite numbers in past ages, they were less avaricious, less tempted by luxury, hungrier for pure power, and, above all, more conscious of what they were doing and more intent on crushing opposition. This last difference was cardinal. By comparison with that existing today, all the tyrannies of the past were half-hearted and inefficient. The ruling groups were always infected to some extent by liberal ideas, and were content to leave loose ends everywhere, to regard only the overt act and to be uninterested in what their subjects were thinking. Even the Catholic Church of the Middle Ages was tolerant by modern standards. Part of the reason for this was that in the past no government had the power to keep its citizens under constant surveillance. The invention of print, however, made it easier to manipulate public opinion, and the film and the radio carried the process further. With the development of television, and the technical advance which made it possible to receive and transmit simultaneously on the same instrument, private life came to an end. Every citizen, or at least every citizen important enough to be worth watching, could be kept for twenty-four hours a day under the eyes of the police and in the sound of official propaganda, with all other channels of communication closed. The possibility of enforcing not only complete obedience to the will of the State, but complete uniformity of opinion on all subjects, now existed for the first time.

After the revolutionary period of the fifties and sixties, society regrouped itself, as always, into High, Middle, and Low. But the new High group, unlike all its forerunners, did not act upon instinct but knew what was needed to safeguard its position. It had long been realized that the only secure basis for oligarchy is collectivism. Wealth and privilege are most easily defended when they are possessed jointly. The so-called 'abolition of private property' which took place in the middle years of the century meant, in effect, the concentration of property in far fewer hands than before: but with this difference, that the new owners were a group instead of a mass of individuals. Individually, no member of the Party owns anything, except petty personal belongings. Collectively, the Party owns everything in Oceania, because it controls everything, and disposes of the products as it thinks fit. In the years following the Revolution it was able to step into this commanding position almost unopposed, because the whole process was represented as an act of collectivization. It had always been assumed that if the capitalist class were expropriated, Socialism must follow: and unquestionably the capitalists had been expropriated. Factories, mines, land, houses, transport -- everything had been taken away from them: and since these things were no longer private property, it followed that they must be public property. Ingsoc, which grew out of the earlier Socialist movement and inherited its phraseology, has in fact carried out the main item in the Socialist programme; with the result, foreseen and intended beforehand, that economic inequality has been made permanent.

But the problems of perpetuating a hierarchical society go deeper than this. There are only four ways in which a ruling group can fall from power. Either it is conquered from without, or it governs so inefficiently that the masses are stirred to revolt, or it allows a strong and discontented Middle group to come into being, or it loses its own self-confidence and willingness to govern. These causes do not operate singly, and as a rule all four of them are present in some degree. A ruling class which could guard against all of them would remain in power permanently. Ultimately the determining factor is the mental attitude of the ruling class itself.

After the middle of the present century, the first danger had in reality disappeared. Each of the three powers which now divide the world is in fact unconquerable, and could only become conquerable through slow demographic changes which a government with wide powers can easily avert. The second danger, also, is only a theoretical one. The masses never revolt of their own accord, and they never revolt merely because they are oppressed. Indeed, so long as they are not permitted to have standards of comparison, they never even become aware that they are oppressed. The recurrent economic crises of past times were totally unnecessary and are not now permitted to happen, but other and equally large dislocations can and do happen without having political results, because there is no way in which discontent can become articulate. As for the problem of overproduction, which has been latent in our society since the development of machine technique, it is solved by the device of continuous warfare (see Chapter III), which is also useful in keying up public morale to the necessary pitch. From the point of view of our present rulers, therefore, the only genuine dangers are the splitting-off of a new group of able, underemployed, power-hungry people, and the growth of liberalism and scepticism in their own ranks. The problem, that is to say, is educational. It is a problem of continuously moulding the consciousness both of the directing group and of the larger executive group that lies immediately below it. The consciousness of the masses needs only to be influenced in a negative way.

Given this background, one could infer, if one did not know it already, the general structure of Oceanic society. At the apex of the pyramid comes Big Brother. Big Brother is infallible and all-powerful. Every success, every achievement, every victory, every scientific discovery, all knowledge, all wisdom, all happiness, all virtue, are held to issue directly from his leadership and inspiration. Nobody has ever seen Big Brother. He is a face on the hoardings, a voice on the telescreen. We may be reasonably sure that he will never die, and there is already considerable uncertainty as to when he was born. Big Brother is the guise in which the Party chooses to exhibit itself to the world. His function is to act as a focusing point for love, fear, and reverence, emotions which are more easily felt towards an individual than towards an organization. Below Big Brother comes the Inner Party. Its numbers limited to six millions, or something less than 2 per cent of the population of Oceania. Below the Inner Party comes the Outer Party, which, if the Inner Party is described as the brain of the State, may be justly likened to the hands. Below that come the dumb masses whom we habitually refer to as 'the proles', numbering perhaps 85 per cent of the population. In the terms of our earlier classification, the proles are the Low: for the slave population of the equatorial lands who pass constantly from conqueror to conqueror, are not a permanent or necessary part of the structure.

In principle, membership of these three groups is not hereditary. The child of Inner Party parents is in theory not born into the Inner Party. Admission to either branch of the Party is by examination, taken at the age of sixteen. Nor is there any racial discrimination, or any marked domination of one province by another. Jews, Negroes, South Americans of pure Indian blood are to be found in the highest ranks of the Party, and the administrators of any area are always drawn from the inhabitants of that area. In no part of Oceania do the inhabitants have the feeling that they are a colonial population ruled from a distant capital. Oceania has no capital, and its titular head is a person whose whereabouts nobody knows. Except that English is its chief lingua franca and Newspeak its official language, it is not centralized in any way. Its rulers are not held together by blood-ties but by adherence to a common doctrine. It is true that our society is stratified, and very rigidly stratified, on what at first sight appear to be hereditary lines. There is far less to- and-fro movement between the different groups than happened under capitalism or even in the pre-industrial age. Between the two branches of the Party there is a certain amount of interchange, but only so much as will ensure that weaklings are excluded from the Inner Party and that ambitious members of the Outer Party are made harmless by allowing them to rise. Proletarians, in practice, are not allowed to graduate into the Party. The most gifted among them, who might possibly become nuclei of discontent, are simply marked down by the Thought Police and eliminated. But this state of affairs is not necessarily permanent, nor is it a matter of principle. The Party is not a class in the old sense of the word. It does not aim at transmitting power to its own children, as such; and if there were no other way of keeping the ablest people at the top, it would be perfectly prepared to recruit an entire new generation from the ranks of the proletariat. In the crucial years, the fact that the Party was not a hereditary body did a great deal to neutralize opposition. The older kind of Socialist, who had been trained to fight against something called 'class privilege' assumed that what is not hereditary cannot be permanent. He did not see that the continuity of an oligarchy need not be physical, nor did he pause to reflect that hereditary aristocracies have always been shortlived, whereas adoptive organizations such as the Catholic Church have sometimes lasted for hundreds or thousands of years. The essence of oligarchical rule is not father-to-son inheritance, but the persistence of a certain world-view and a certain way of life, imposed by the dead upon the living. A ruling group is a ruling group so long as it can nominate its successors. The Party is not concerned with perpetuating its blood but with perpetuating itself. Who wields power is not important, provided that the hierarchical structure remains always the same...

...The splitting up of the world into three great super-states was an event which could be and indeed was foreseen before the middle of the twentieth century. With the absorption of Europe by Russia and of the British Empire by the United States, two of the three existing powers, Eurasia and Oceania, were already effectively in being. The third, Eastasia, only emerged as a distinct unit after another decade of confused fighting. The frontiers between the three super-states are in some places arbitrary, and in others they fluctuate according to the fortunes of war, but in general they follow geographical lines. Eurasia comprises the whole of the northern part of the European and Asiatic land-mass, from Portugal to the Bering Strait. Oceania comprises the Americas, the Atlantic islands including the British Isles, Australasia, and the southern portion of Africa. Eastasia, smaller than the others and with a less definite western frontier, comprises China and the countries to the south of it, the Japanese islands and a large but fluctuating portion of Manchuria, Mongolia, and Tibet...

...In one combination or another, these three super-states are permanently at war, and have been so for the past twenty-five years. War, however, is no longer the desperate, annihilating struggle that it was in the early decades of the twentieth century. It is a warfare of limited aims between combatants who are unable to destroy one another, have no material cause for fighting and are not divided by any genuine ideological difference. This is not to say that either the conduct of war, or the prevailing attitude towards it, has become less bloodthirsty or more chivalrous. On the contrary, war hysteria is continuous and universal in all countries, and such acts as raping, looting, the slaughter of children, the reduction of whole populations to slavery, and reprisals against prisoners which extend even to boiling and burying alive, are looked upon as normal, and, when they are committed by one's own side and not by the enemy, meritorious. But in a physical sense war involves very small numbers of people, mostly highly-trained specialists, and causes comparatively few casualties. The fighting, when there is any, takes place on the vague frontiers whose whereabouts the average man can only guess at, or round the Floating Fortresses which guard strategic spots on the sea lanes. In the centres of civilization war means no more than a continuous shortage of consumption goods, and the occasional crash of a rocket bomb which may cause a few scores of deaths. War has in fact changed its character. More exactly, the reasons for which war is waged have changed in their order of importance. Motives which were already present to some small extent in the great wars of the early twentieth century have now become dominant and are consciously recognized and acted upon.

To understand the nature of the present war -- for in spite of the regrouping which occurs every few years, it is always the same war -- one must realize in the first place that it is impossible for it to be decisive. None of the three super-states could be definitively conquered even by the other two in combination. They are too evenly matched, and their natural defenses are too formidable. Eurasia is protected by its vast land spaces. Oceania by the width of the Atlantic and the Pacific, Eastasia by the fecundity and industriousness of its inhabitants. Secondly, there is no longer, in a material sense, anything to fight about. With the establishment of self-contained economies, in which production and consumption are geared to one another, the scramble for markets which was a main cause of previous wars has come to an end, while the competition for raw materials is no longer a matter of life and death. In any case each of the three super-states is so vast that it can obtain almost all the materials that it needs within its own boundaries. In so far as the war has a direct economic purpose, it is a war for labour power. Between the frontiers of the super- states, and not permanently in the possession of any of them, there lies a rough quadrilateral with its corners at Tangier, Brazzaville, Darwin, and Hong Kong, containing within it about a fifth of the population of the earth. It is for the possession of these thickly-populated regions, and of the northern ice-cap, that the three powers are constantly struggling. In practice no one power ever controls the whole of the disputed area. Portions of it are constantly changing hands, and it is the chance of seizing this or that fragment by a sudden stroke of treachery that dictates the endless changes of alignment.



All of the disputed territories contain valuable minerals, and some of them yield important vegetable products such as rubber which in colder climates it is necessary to synthesize by comparatively expensive methods. But above all they contain a bottomless reserve of cheap labour. Whichever power controls equatorial Africa, or the countries of the Middle East, or Southern India, or the Indonesian Archipelago, disposes also of the bodies of scores or hundreds of millions of ill-paid and hard-working coolies. The inhabitants of these areas, reduced more or less openly to the status of slaves, pass continually from conqueror to conqueror, and are expended like so much coal or oil in the race to turn out more armaments, to capture more territory, to control more labour power, to turn out more armaments, to capture more territory, and so on indefinitely. It should be noted that the fighting never really moves beyond the edges of the disputed areas. The frontiers of Eurasia flow back and forth between the basin of the Congo and the northern shore of the Mediterranean; the islands of the Indian Ocean and the Pacific are constantly being captured and recaptured by Oceania or by Eastasia; in Mongolia the dividing line between Eurasia and Eastasia is never stable; round the Pole all three powers lay claim to enormous territories which in fact are largely unihabited and unexplored: but the balance of power always remains roughly even, and the territory which forms the heartland of each super-state always remains inviolate. Moreover, the labour of the exploited peoples round the Equator is not really necessary to the world's economy. They add nothing to the wealth of the world, since whatever they produce is used for purposes of war, and the object of waging a war is always to be in a better position in which to wage another war. By their labour the slave populations allow the tempo of continuous warfare to be speeded up. But if they did not exist, the structure of world society, and the process by which it maintains itself, would not be essentially different.

The primary aim of modern warfare (in accordance with the principles of doublethink, this aim is simultaneously recognized and not recognized by the directing brains of the Inner Party) is to use up the products of the machine without raising the general standard of living. Ever since the end of the nineteenth century, the problem of what to do with the surplus of consumption goods has been latent in industrial society. At present, when few human beings even have enough to eat, this problem is obviously not urgent, and it might not have become so, even if no artificial processes of destruction had been at work. The world of today is a bare, hungry, dilapidated place compared with the world that existed before 1914, and still more so if compared with the imaginary future to which the people of that period looked forward. In the early twentieth century, the vision of a future society unbelievably rich, leisured, orderly, and efficient -- a glittering antiseptic world of glass and steel and snow-white concrete -- was part of the consciousness of nearly every literate person. Science and technology were developing at a prodigious speed, and it seemed natural to assume that they would go on developing. This failed to happen, partly because of the impoverishment caused by a long series of wars and revolutions, partly because scientific and technical progress depended on the empirical habit of thought, which could not survive in a strictly regimented society. As a whole the world is more primitive today than it was fifty years ago. Certain backward areas have advanced, and various devices, always in some way connected with warfare and police espionage, have been developed, but experiment and invention have largely stopped, and the ravages of the atomic war of the nineteen- fifties have never been fully repaired. Nevertheless the dangers inherent in the machine are still there. From the moment when the machine first made its appearance it was clear to all thinking people that the need for human drudgery, and therefore to a great extent for human inequality, had disappeared. If the machine were used deliberately for that end, hunger, overwork, dirt, illiteracy, and disease could be eliminated within a few generations. And in fact, without being used for any such purpose, but by a sort of automatic process -- by producing wealth which it was sometimes impossible not to distribute -- the machine did raise the living standards of the average human being very greatly over a period of about fifty years at the end of the nineteenth and the beginning of the twentieth centuries.

But it was also clear that an all-round increase in wealth threatened the destruction -- indeed, in some sense was the destruction -- of a hierarchical society. In a world in which everyone worked short hours, had enough to eat, lived in a house with a bathroom and a refrigerator, and possessed a motor-car or even an aeroplane, the most obvious and perhaps the most important form of inequality would already have disappeared. If it once became general, wealth would confer no distinction. It was possible, no doubt, to imagine a society in which wealth, in the sense of personal possessions and luxuries, should be evenly distributed, while power remained in the hands of a small privileged caste. But in practice such a society could not long remain stable. For if leisure and security were enjoyed by all alike, the great mass of human beings who are normally stupefied by poverty would become literate and would learn to think for themselves; and when once they had done this, they would sooner or later realize that the privileged minority had no function, and they would sweep it away. In the long run, a hierarchical society was only possible on a basis of poverty and ignorance. To return to the agricultural past, as some thinkers about the beginning of the twentieth century dreamed of doing, was not a practicable solution. It conflicted with the tendency towards mechanization which had become quasi-instinctive throughout almost the whole world, and moreover, any country which remained industrially backward was helpless in a military sense and was bound to be dominated, directly or indirectly, by its more advanced rivals.

Nor was it a satisfactory solution to keep the masses in poverty by restricting the output of goods. This happened to a great extent during the final phase of capitalism, roughly between 1920 and 1940. The economy of many countries was allowed to stagnate, land went out of cultivation, capital equipment was not added to, great blocks of the population were prevented from working and kept half alive by State charity. But this, too, entailed military weakness, and since the privations it inflicted were obviously unnecessary, it made opposition inevitable. The problem was how to keep the wheels of industry turning without increasing the real wealth of the world. Goods must be produced, but they must not be distributed. And in practice the only way of achieving this was by continuous warfare.

What a Wonderful World The essential act of war is destruction, not necessarily of human lives, but of the products of human labour. War is a way of shattering to pieces, or pouring into the stratosphere, or sinking in the depths of the sea, materials which might otherwise be used to make the masses too comfortable, and hence, in the long run, too intelligent. Even when weapons of war are not actually destroyed, their manufacture is still a convenient way of expending labour power without producing anything that can be consumed. A Floating Fortress, for example, has locked up in it the labour that would build several hundred cargo-ships. Ultimately it is scrapped as obsolete, never having brought any material benefit to anybody, and with further enormous labours another Floating Fortress is built. In principle the war effort is always so planned as to eat up any surplus that might exist after meeting the bare needs of the population. In practice the needs of the population are always underestimated, with the result that there is a chronic shortage of half the necessities of life; but this is looked on as an advantage. It is deliberate policy to keep even the favoured groups somewhere near the brink of hardship, because a general state of scarcity increases the importance of small privileges and thus magnifies the distinction between one group and another. By the standards of the early twentieth century, even a member of the Inner Party lives an austere, laborious kind of life. Nevertheless, the few luxuries that he does enjoy his large, well-appointed flat, the better texture of his clothes, the better quality of his food and drink and tobacco, his two or three servants, his private motor-car or helicopter -- set him in a different world from a member of the Outer Party, and the members of the Outer Party have a similar advantage in comparison with the submerged masses whom we call 'the proles'. The social atmosphere is that of a besieged city, where the possession of a lump of horseflesh makes the difference between wealth and poverty. And at the same time the consciousness of being at war, and therefore in danger, makes the handing-over of all power to a small caste seem the natural, unavoidable condition of survival.

War, it will be seen, accomplishes the necessary destruction, but accomplishes it in a psychologically acceptable way. In principle it would be quite simple to waste the surplus labour of the world by building temples and pyramids, by digging holes and filling them up again, or even by producing vast quantities of goods and then setting fire to them. But this would provide only the economic and not the emotional basis for a hierarchical society. What is concerned here is not the morale of masses, whose attitude is unimportant so long as they are kept steadily at work, but the morale of the Party itself. Even the humblest Party member is expected to be competent, industrious, and even intelligent within narrow limits, but it is also necessary that he should be a credulous and ignorant fanatic whose prevailing moods are fear, hatred, adulation, and orgiastic triumph. In other words it is necessary that he should have the mentality appropriate to a state of war. It does not matter whether the war is actually happening, and, since no decisive victory is possible, it does not matter whether the war is going well or badly. All that is needed is that a state of war should exist. The splitting of the intelligence which the Party requires of its members, and which is more easily achieved in an atmosphere of war, is now almost universal, but the higher up the ranks one goes, the more marked it becomes. It is precisely in the Inner Party that war hysteria and hatred of the enemy are strongest. In his capacity as an administrator, it is often necessary for a member of the Inner Party to know that this or that item of war news is untruthful, and he may often be aware that the entire war is spurious and is either not happening or is being waged for purposes quite other than the declared ones: but such knowledge is easily neutralized by the technique of doublethink. Meanwhile no Inner Party member wavers for an instant in his mystical belief that the war is real, and that it is bound to end victoriously, with Oceania the undisputed master of the entire world.

All members of the Inner Party believe in this coming conquest as an article of faith. It is to be achieved either by gradually acquiring more and more territory and so building up an overwhelming preponderance of power, or by the discovery of some new and unanswerable weapon. The search for new weapons continues unceasingly, and is one of the very few remaining activities in which the inventive or speculative type of mind can find any outlet. In Oceania at the present day, Science, in the old sense, has almost ceased to exist. In Newspeak there is no word for 'Science'. The empirical method of thought, on which all the scientific achievements of the past were founded, is opposed to the most fundamental principles of Ingsoc. And even technological progress only happens when its products can in some way be used for the diminution of human liberty. In all the useful arts the world is either standing still or going backwards. The fields are cultivated with horse-ploughs while books are written by machinery. But in matters of vital importance -- meaning, in effect, war and police espionage -- the empirical approach is still encouraged, or at least tolerated. The two aims of the Party are to conquer the whole surface of the earth and to extinguish once and for all the possibility of independent thought. There are therefore two great problems which the Party is concerned to solve. One is how to discover, against his will, what another human being is thinking, and the other is how to kill several hundred million people in a few seconds without giving warning beforehand. In so far as scientific research still continues, this is its subject matter. The scientist of today is either a mixture of psychologist and inquisitor, studying with real ordinary minuteness the meaning of facial expressions, gestures, and tones of voice, and testing the truth-producing effects of drugs, shock therapy, hypnosis, and physical torture; or he is chemist, physicist, or biologist concerned only with such branches of his special subject as are relevant to the taking of life. In the vast laboratories of the Ministry of Peace, and in the experimental stations hidden in the Brazilian forests, or in the Australian desert, or on lost islands of the Antarctic, the teams of experts are indefatigably at work. Some are concerned simply with planning the logistics of future wars; others devise larger and larger rocket bombs, more and more powerful explosives, and more and more impenetrable armour- plating; others search for new and deadlier gases, or for soluble poisons capable of being produced in such quantities as to destroy the vegetation of whole continents, or for breeds of disease germs immunized against all possible antibodies; others strive to produce a vehicle that shall bore its way under the soil like a submarine under the water, or an aeroplane as independent of its base as a sailing-ship; others explore even remoter possibilities such as focusing the sun's rays through lenses suspended thousands of kilometres away in space, or producing artificial earthquakes and tidal waves by tapping the heat at the earth's centre.

But none of these projects ever comes anywhere near realization, and none of the three super-states ever gains a significant lead on the others. What is more remarkable is that all three powers already possess, in the atomic bomb, a weapon far more powerful than any that their present researches are likely to discover. Although the Party, according to its habit, claims the invention for itself, atomic bombs first appeared as early as the nineteen- forties, and were first used on a large scale about ten years later. At that time some hundreds of bombs were dropped on industrial centres, chiefly in European Russia, Western Europe, and North America. The effect was to convince the ruling groups of all countries that a few more atomic bombs would mean the end of organized society, and hence of their own power. Thereafter, although no formal agreement was ever made or hinted at, no more bombs were dropped. All three powers merely continue to produce atomic bombs and store them up against the decisive opportunity which they all believe will come sooner or later. And meanwhile the art of war has remained almost stationary for thirty or forty years. Helicopters are more used than they were formerly, bombing planes have been largely superseded by self-propelled projectiles, and the fragile movable battleship has given way to the almost unsinkable Floating Fortress; but otherwise there has been little development. The tank, the submarine, the torpedo, the machine gun, even the rifle and the hand grenade are still in use. And in spite of the endless slaughters reported in the Press and on the telescreens, the desperate battles of earlier wars, in which hundreds of thousands or even millions of men were often killed in a few weeks, have never been repeated.

None of the three super-states ever attempts any maneuver which involves the risk of serious defeat. When any large operation is undertaken, it is usually a surprise attack against an ally. The strategy that all three powers are following, or pretend to themselves that they are following, is the same. The plan is, by a combination of fighting, bargaining, and well-timed strokes of treachery, to acquire a ring of bases completely encircling one or other of the rival states, and then to sign a pact of friendship with that rival and remain on peaceful terms for so many years as to lull suspicion to sleep. During this time rockets loaded with atomic bombs can be assembled at all the strategic spots; finally they will all be fired simultaneously, with effects so devastating as to make retaliation impossible. It will then be time to sign a pact of friendship with the remaining world-power, in preparation for another attack. This scheme, it is hardly necessary to say, is a mere daydream, impossible of realization. Moreover, no fighting ever occurs except in the disputed areas round the Equator and the Pole: no invasion of enemy territory is ever undertaken. This explains the fact that in some places the frontiers between the superstates are arbitrary. Eurasia, for example, could easily conquer the British Isles, which are geographically part of Europe, or on the other hand it would be possible for Oceania to push its frontiers to the Rhine or even to the Vistula. But this would violate the principle, followed on all sides though never formulated, of cultural integrity. If Oceania were to conquer the areas that used once to be known as France and Germany, it would be necessary either to exterminate the inhabitants, a task of great physical difficulty, or to assimilate a population of about a hundred million people, who, so far as technical development goes, are roughly on the Oceanic level. The problem is the same for all three super-states. It is absolutely necessary to their structure that there should be no contact with foreigners, except, to a limited extent, with war prisoners and coloured slaves. Even the official ally of the moment is always regarded with the darkest suspicion. War prisoners apart, the average citizen of Oceania never sets eyes on a citizen of either Eurasia or Eastasia, and he is forbidden the knowledge of foreign languages. If he were allowed contact with foreigners he would discover that they are creatures similar to himself and that most of what he has been told about them is lies. The sealed world in which he lives would be broken, and the fear, hatred, and self-righteousness on which his morale depends might evaporate. It is therefore realized on all sides that however often Persia, or Egypt, or Java, or Ceylon may change hands, the main frontiers must never be crossed by anything except bombs.

What is it we're shooting for? Under this lies a fact never mentioned aloud, but tacitly understood and acted upon: namely, that the conditions of life in all three super-states are very much the same. In Oceania the prevailing philosophy is called Ingsoc, in Eurasia it is called Neo-Bolshevism, and in Eastasia it is called by a Chinese name usually translated as Death- Worship, but perhaps better rendered as Obliteration of the Self. The citizen of Oceania is not allowed to know anything of the tenets of the other two philosophies, but he is taught to execrate them as barbarous outrages upon morality and common sense. Actually the three philosophies are barely distinguishable, and the social systems which they support are not distinguishable at all. Everywhere there is the same pyramidal structure, the same worship of semi-divine leader, the same economy existing by and for continuous warfare. It follows that the three super-states not only cannot conquer one another, but would gain no advantage by doing so. On the contrary, so long as they remain in conflict they prop one another up, like three sheaves of corn. And, as usual, the ruling groups of all three powers are simultaneously aware and unaware of what they are doing. Their lives are dedicated to world conquest, but they also know that it is necessary that the war should continue everlastingly and without victory. Meanwhile the fact that there is no danger of conquest makes possible the denial of reality which is the special feature of Ingsoc and its rival systems of thought. Here it is necessary to repeat what has been said earlier, that by becoming continuous war has fundamentally changed its character.

In past ages, a war, almost by definition, was something that sooner or later came to an end, usually in unmistakable victory or defeat. In the past, also, war was one of the main instruments by which human societies were kept in touch with physical reality. All rulers in all ages have tried to impose a false view of the world upon their followers, but they could not afford to encourage any illusion that tended to impair military efficiency. So long as defeat meant the loss of independence, or some other result generally held to be undesirable, the precautions against defeat had to be serious. Physical facts could not be ignored. In philosophy, or religion, or ethics, or politics, two and two might make five, but when one was designing a gun or an aeroplane they had to make four. Inefficient nations were always conquered sooner or later, and the struggle for efficiency was inimical to illusions. Moreover, to be efficient it was necessary to be able to learn from the past, which meant having a fairly accurate idea of what had happened in the past. Newspapers and history books were, of course, always coloured and biased, but falsification of the kind that is practiced today would have been impossible. War was a sure safeguard of sanity, and so far as the ruling classes were concerned it was probably the most important of all safeguards. While wars could be won or lost, no ruling class could be completely irresponsible.



But when war becomes literally continuous, it also ceases to be dangerous. When war is continuous there is no such thing as military necessity. Technical progress can cease and the most palpable facts can be denied or disregarded. As we have seen, researches that could be called scientific are still carried out for the purposes of war, but they are essentially a kind of daydreaming, and their failure to show results is not important. Efficiency, even military efficiency, is no longer needed. Nothing is efficient in Oceania except the Thought Police. Since each of the three super-states is unconquerable, each is in effect a separate universe within which almost any perversion of thought can be safely practised. Reality only exerts its pressure through the needs of everyday life -- the need to eat and drink, to get shelter and clothing, to avoid swallowing poison or stepping out of top-storey windows, and the like. Between life and death, and between physical pleasure and physical pain, there is still a distinction, but that is all. Cut off from contact with the outer world, and with the past, the citizen of Oceania is like a man in interstellar space, who has no way of knowing which direction is up and which is down. The rulers of such a state are absolute, as the Pharaohs or the Caesars could not be. They are obliged to prevent their followers from starving to death in numbers large enough to be inconvenient, and they are obliged to remain at the same low level of military technique as their rivals; but once that minimum is achieved, they can twist reality into whatever shape they choose.

The war, therefore, if we judge it by the standards of previous wars, is merely an imposture. It is like the battles between certain ruminant animals whose horns are set at such an angle that they are incapable of hurting one another. But though it is unreal it is not meaningless. It eats up the surplus of consumable goods, and it helps to preserve the special mental atmosphere that a hierarchical society needs. War, it will be seen, is now a purely internal affair. In the past, the ruling groups of all countries, although they might recognize their common interest and therefore limit the destructiveness of war, did fight against one another, and the victor always plundered the vanquished. In our own day they are not fighting against one another at all. The war is waged by each ruling group against its own subjects, and the object of the war is not to make or prevent conquests of territory, but to keep the structure of society intact. The very word 'war', therefore, has become misleading. It would probably be accurate to say that by becoming continuous war has ceased to exist. The peculiar pressure that it exerted on human beings between the Neolithic Age and the early twentieth century has disappeared and been replaced by something quite different. The effect would be much the same if the three super-states, instead of fighting one another, should agree to live in perpetual peace, each inviolate within its own boundaries. For in that case each would still be a self-contained universe, freed for ever from the sobering influence of external danger. A peace that was truly permanent would be the same as a permanent war. This -- although the vast majority of Party members understand it only in a shallower sense -- is the inner meaning of the Party slogan: War is Peace.


Goldstein
Emmanuel Goldstein

Wednesday, 2 January 2008

The Ideal I Can Never Live Up To



I suppose it's a well to start the New Year with an insight into the part of my character which can never be fulfilled. The part of me which sits inside, deeply unsatisfied, the part which will always feel it has failed.

I partied throughout my twenties and through my own ruin and back again, and that sense of self-betrayal remains as potent as ever.

I am not and never will be that which I hold respect for.

But the huge awe which I hold for that concept, governs the way I view the world, in ways I sometimes overlook.

I included in my list of New Year's wishes recently a desire for Ms Right to appear. I guess that's normal, you'd think. It seems to be what those around me want.
Yet here's the point- I can't REALLY see, being honest, how even Ms Right can be right. I only twigged this over the last few months, that one of the key problems is how I view the whole concept of relationships.

You might get the idea from some of the things I write that I lead a hugely kinky debauched sex life. I actually don't see myself as being particularly promiscuous, I tend to go in phases- a few months with a swift turnover, than a few months abstinence. I'm actually quite a prude in some ways, there are certain things there is no point in asking me to do. It's not actually up there in my top favorite pastimes, believe it or not. It's a bodily function and I seem to get the urge a fair bit, but that's pretty much how I see it.

What's more important, to me, is holding a nice soft body with supple skin, feeling the warm breath on the back of your nack, feeling her arms snuggle tight around your waist. I sleep better that way.

The question is, what more do I want out of it?

And here we come to the real issue. We all need something to live for, and for many, the ideal is that of 'Romantic Love.'

And sometimes, I get hooked by that ideal.

But of late I saw the pattern.

It only happens at times when I feel, in some sense, without a purpose.
When I have no hope.
At these points, I guess I'm vulnerable and, like some character in a 'Midsummer Night's Dream', it really could be a donkey. It really will be the first person to come along in that moment of crisis offering affection.

Things go wrong, when life rights itself.

Because as soon as I regain faith in myself, I start to feel guilty and ashamed.
What of, you justifiably ask?
We'll come to that.

I'm OK with these things as long as they are little more than casual friendships with the added bonus of a bit mutual comfort and affection, it's when they start to interfere with the image of myself I hold up in my head, the me I truly want to see myself as.

You see, it really is true, I want to love EVERYBODY. Not in the way you're thinking. There is a sense in which the IDEAL relationship I ACTUALLY want with people, is that of brother and sister. I devote a lot of effort to friendships, and will give them precedence over 'romantic' relationships. It took me a while to twig why. It's because I want ALL my relationships with EVERYBODY to be platonic friendships. I value them. 'Romantic' relationships, as we have already mentioned offend my inner conscience in a way that I guess it has taken me up till twenty nine to realise.

Even looking at the way I dress out of preference, is significant. Black shirt or t-shirt, black trousers, black jacket, crucifix showing.
I feel more comfortable dressed that way, instinctively. I just feel more- me.



Because I could not live like a priest, I could not be a priest. The life of a Catholic priest today, is not a happy one.
But they are the highest ideals I can think of, they are the only people I have total respect for, would trust implicitly.
The Catholic Church is the only institution I hold dear.

But the ideal, that of living for a cause, that of living for all humanity, rather than being tied to one, that is the ideal that remains tied up in my head.

When Gregory VII extended the oath of celibacy to regular clergy, he specifically stated he wasn't prohibiting clergy from keeping mistresses- what he was stopping, was the making of two incompatible vows.

A priest cannot honestly say he serves all, if he has made the vows a man makes to a woman in marriage.
It is God and the Church he is wedded to. This is his life's cause.

And I guess that there lies my whole mindset.

To devote your life to just one person, is the second rate option.

It is to accept a life of failure, a life destined to achieve nothing.

And at times when I feel my life is going nowhere, I guess love of the romantic kind seems appealing. It can't make me happy in the same way having a purpose of some kind can, but it can provide comfort.

But can it really compare to the love of a man for an ideal?

The ideal that you are there for all equally, that no one has a special claim to you.
And in my mind, and in my mind, that is how I like to see myself, pure, uncorrupted by the taint of someone else marking you as theirs, belonging to all equally, with none you turn your back on.



Oh, I'll never be a martyr. The revolution won't come for a good many years, I guess, by which time I'll be too old to be much use.

And I guess for all my closet clerical yearnings, there is never going to be much saintly or priestly about me.

But the ideals are still good.

Love as many people as you can.
And don't let 'Romantic Love' get in the way.

One can only dream that it didn't. It just always seems to.

Tuesday, 1 January 2008

All Quiet on a New Years Day



Not an especially sunny day. A grey January day, warm enough to wear a short sleeved shirt still.
Quite where that break went, I'm not sure.

I can't really put my hand on my heart and say it all went to good use. I slept a lot.

The days have passed like the bat of an eyelid. The dull reality of work looms large, the return to mundanity, the days stretching ahead, a long line of numbers till the crack of doom. Starting with a three day week, is a slow easing back into it, but I'd be lying if I said I feel fully rested.

As far as making any kind of personal resolutions go, I guess taking better care of myself has to be one of them. I need to start eating properly, not just random bits of junk. I could probably do with cutting down on smoking, I can't really see me giving up, but I must stop running myself into the ground.
2007 mentally and physically exhausted me. I'm not going to let 2008 do the same. I don't think I've quite achieved all I want just yet.

2008, well, it will mark thirty years of my existence on this mortal coil. The start of the downhill slope. It's certainly the year I kiss goodbye to the excesses of youth. It was an eventful twenties, though how constructive it was, I'm not probably not the best judge.

There's a lot I hope lies buried in 2007. Not just from that year, but baggage I carried from long before. Some crosses we will never stop carrying, but one should at least try to make use of them, in a positive way.
I'm alive. I'm not broken. I have a home, friends, music. I even have a blog.

Not much more to want, really.

It could all have gone a lot worse.

This is the year I hope everything works out, that in this year life really lives up to the hopes that have appeared in it of late. A balanced life, a stable life, maybe even a contented one.

Struggle? Of course. Life is a struggle, life is endurance.
Sometimes it really that really is all it is.

But there are joys in the little things that once I would have took for granted, but know now cannot be.

A good game of football, a decent pint, a good CD. Having your mates nearby.

A ggod chat. Laughing.
Sitting on the sofa with friends watching Spiderman III and making stupid comments all the way through.
Being the object of the shameless flirtations of a fairly forward nineteen year old girl. It's nice to know that you you can be flattered but ethical at the same time, though the temptation was certainly strong.

Over the last few months I have seen the tantalising hopes of genuine fulfillment. Goodbye, at last to the illusory ones.

2008? The year life starts to make sense?

I'm cautiously optimistic.