Friday, 9 March 2007

Something I wouldn't normally do.

Just posting this before I shower, shave and do my hair. Listening to 'Get a rush' by Steve Blake on ReactivateEnergise Album.
Meeting this girl tonight who I'm slightly apprehensive about meeting.
Basically, I was given her number yesterday by a work colleague together with a phorograph and told she knew who I was- she'd seen me- and wanted to meet up.
I'm always fairly resistant to this sort of thing, I usually meet women out and about, so to meet someone you don't know in a 'romantic' context isn't really me. A friend of mine does speed dating, but I won't do it on principle.
To be honest it's not as if I don't have other irons in the fire.
Anyway, I felt I had to do this 'date' as it would be rude to my colleague if I didn't so I did ring this girl last night and arranged to meet her tonight.
Since then she has been texting me since two saying she is worried about what to wear and worried she won't look good enough. I have given all the appropriate answers, but problem is, I'm good at giving the right answers. Her texts have been gaining an increasing amount of 'x's at the end.
I know she has been hurt in the past and I also know that I have hurt of lot of women without meaning too.
Problem is I love female attention, always have done and I seem to attract needy women quite easy. She seems a lovely girl and I have an uneasy feeling that we are really going to get on and like eachother.
But she is looking for someone to solve her problems, I just like having a fan club.
This isn't new to me in that respect, but it's like an addiction and I have no willpower.

I'm sick of hurting people.
Just so you know, I never have sex on the first meeting on principle.


Still, what will be will be.

7 comments:

Ms Smack said...

oooo what a conundrum. This message is too late by now, but I would say this...

when she's whining about her problems, say 'oh, i'm sorry to hear that. Do you have a supportive group of women friends to talk to' and constantly accept it, but dont own it - delegate!

I'd love to go on a date with you :)

Crushed said...

Well, it seems we are going shopping today.
I always find that an ominous pastime for two people of different sexes to do together.
Don't get me wrong she really does seem a nice girl- (and hell, she's TINY)- but she does seem fragile. You just want to wrap her up in cotton wool and put her somewhere safe.
Unfortunately, even on the basis of last night, I have now become somewhat responsible for her, because she really did let me in. I was worried that would happen and did try and divert it, but by the fourth Guiness, when your heads seem to have got locked together and your other brain is starting to have it's say, you find yourself letting her tell you things she shouldn't.

Even bringing up my recreational hobbies didn't put her off...

I'd love to go on a date with you too!!

Ms Smack said...

hehehe I hope you have a lovely time!

Email me sometime?

miss.smack@gmail.com

Ellee said...

It must be a heavy date, no updates yet...

Crushed said...

An ongoing moral dilemma.
Poor girl has had a hard life- harder than any girl deserves really, and one which in a sense I can relate too.
I had the whole 'you're different to other men' thing last night, which always makes me feel awful.
She hardly knows me, but she thinks she does.
I feel almost guilty about going to find Jo for some light relief tonight.

Ellee said...

Ummmm, tricky.

Ms Smack said...

Isnt it better to say 'we're feeling different things' now, before she invests her heart and time into you, thinking that everything is ok?

Alot of women feel resentful for men 'stealing their time' when they should have just spoken up.

If you're genuinely not interested, you should say so. Mr Right for her could be just around the corner.