My Question

Strictly by coincidence, The article I’d planned to post today related in many ways to the one Crushed posted below. But fortunately - or unfortunately, I decided, last-minute, to put it off in favour of this: I have a question on my mind and I’m eager for an intelligent audience to consider it. I could use some constructive feedback.

A brief prologue:

I’ve abandoned a very satisfying career and am currently dispersing most of my possessions as I begin transitioning into a mobile, charitable existence; not out of any heroics or nobility, but out of selfish interest. I just wish to follow my instincts and further intensify the joyful liberation that I’ve been blessed with of late. I wish to expand on the qualities of harmony that I’ve been tuning in to and to help manifest more harmony in the lives of anyone who is open to my help - wherever the road shall lead.

That said - I must begin with Side B of The Question:

There is a sort of paradox at play here. My instincts, understandings, perspectives, talents, desires and goals are, by neither chance or design, most wonderfully consolidated at this stage, which fills me with a clarity of purpose. Just purpose, mind you. The route to get there is largely unknown to me still. But such a perfect symmetry is inspiring and lends a strong flavour of validity to the whole package of components; the understandings, goals, etc.

But the utopian outcome from following said purpose, would nullify said purpose because in theory, by becoming a person of pure harmony and by coaching to that same end the entire human population, the task would be complete and the purpose nullified. Hence new purposes must be then devised and the total unifying symmetry, that initial motivator, would no longer exist.

Which leads to Side A of The Question:

It concerns a possible reason why we have developed into a society that is so utterly failing according to the yardstick of any popular philosophy or religion;

Why the core teachings of said structures (learned in detail by the faithful and in essence by the surrounding populations) are so universally accepted as the norm, so universally displayed as façade toward the public and ‘the other’ and yet so universally contradicted in private;

Why all of our primary endeavours are so besieged by illusion:

Is it because we’re just too smart?

Would the utopian human evolution; an existence of global unconditional kindness just be too boring for such intricate minds to endure?

Do we accept these lives of intricate and unending duplicity and game-playing out of desperate need for recreation?

Is the human evolution of intelligence an insane extravagance just as the peacock’s tail - all at once a brilliant arena for the mating game and a lethal liability? I’m far from the first to wonder if the human brain is too powerful for our own good; that we may use it ultimately to destroy ourselves.

I would really like to think that the global evolution of truly unconditional love is inevitable; that eventually the real miracles that separate the human from the animals - imagination, creativity - will win out and every human will be an artist, poet and musician, and be at peace; that a truly global community will provide enough work - valid joyful work - as the rich in resources labour for the poor out of dedication to loving equality; that we’ll have enough to keep us busy without resorting to this current ever-spiralling charade of wealth-and-reputation-mongering;

Where politicians would serve out of duty, not personal interest and drug companies would forgo the staggering profit from illness and find cures and individuals would live such beautifully simple lives that there were no need to calculate their every word and reduce human interaction to the meaningless interaction of puppets - and so on and so on and so on.

So I head out into the world with two initial objectives.

One - to find people of common interest so to learn what methods; what vehicles of this evolutionary change are out there. To discern what 'prophets', if any, have merit and what I can learn from them. I think India is the place for that.

And two - to test a theory: If I embark on a simple existence, requiring only shelter from the elements and food in my belly while I devote my time to the giving of kindness - would I glean perhaps ten per cent of such kindness in return, and would that be enough to sustain me? North America shall be the place for that.

But I head out with this question: Besides, hopefully, the enrichment of whatever lives I’m able to positively touch, will I really make a difference in the world? Will I really budge the world - even an inch - along a path to that utopian evolution?

Or am I just an inevitable human variation - as that ultimate do-gooder, Neo, at the close of The Matrix Reloaded, was revealed as simply the ninth (or so) version of a repeating irregularity?

Will there always be people - priests, poets, songwriters, hippies, whatever, trying to make a difference without ever manifesting actual migration?

Am I only part of an inevitable balance in a society that likes itself just as it is, for all its complaining otherwise?